看了一半看不下去的電影。
一個女人去浪遊找尋自己，本來是很浪漫很型，但要有ground。
但我覺得這個女人只是不斷不滿現狀，不但自己想要甚麼不知道，連自己不想要甚麼都不知道，i.e. 甚麼都不知道，只是沈醉在自己的depression裡面，無啦啦在傷春悲秋，然後對身邊的人發脾氣。她需要的是心理醫生。
說了這些，朋友說，“怎麼你的都是男生的想法？！她的想法我都可以理解啊！”
Er...?
大鑊，要認真學野了。
2010年11月28日 星期日
2010年11月25日 星期四
2010年11月21日 星期日
Abnormal vs different
強力推介本週王迪詩專欄：
第六隻手指，切還是不切？
我托着腮，看着那則網上新聞沉思了一會。孩子生下來有六隻手指，這種個案在世界各地都出現過。有些情況，那第六根手指是畸形的，骨頭不正常或容易折斷，應該切除。但也有些情況，那第六根指頭明明是好端端的，功能正常，看上去跟其他五根指頭無異，除了彈琴和打字方便一點，有什麼問題呢？
只要付得起手術費，大部分父母都會選擇切除。正常人有五隻手指，多了一隻手指會被視為「不正常」的。上學會被同學笑，上街會被途人望，動手術切除是為免孩子自卑。
敢於與別不同
有時候，我不大確定所謂「正常」是什麼意思。跟大部分人一樣，就算是「正常」了嗎？我多一隻手指影響到你嗎？為什麼「人人都有五隻手指」，我就非要「五隻手指」不可？切除一根有血有肉的健康指頭，不是太殘忍了嗎？有些父母認為把孩子塑造成主流一樣，孩子的路會好走一點。一旦跟大夥兒不同，就會遭到歧視了。你比別人聰明，會遭到歧視；你比別人愚蠢，會遭到歧視。智商必須保持在全港中位數的上下10%以內，真是一趟吃力的人生啊。
我從網上看到一則新聞，浙江一個女孩生下來就擁有十二隻手指和十二隻腳趾。家人起初擔心孩子會被人嘲笑，爺爺卻疼惜地說：「正常的，每隻腳趾都有骨頭！」他明白了第六根指頭的意義，給孫女起了名字──邵無雙。
每個人都是與別不同的。問題是，你是否敢於與別不同。
－－節錄自《蘭開夏道》20/11/2010
第六隻手指，切還是不切？
我托着腮，看着那則網上新聞沉思了一會。孩子生下來有六隻手指，這種個案在世界各地都出現過。有些情況，那第六根手指是畸形的，骨頭不正常或容易折斷，應該切除。但也有些情況，那第六根指頭明明是好端端的，功能正常，看上去跟其他五根指頭無異，除了彈琴和打字方便一點，有什麼問題呢？
只要付得起手術費，大部分父母都會選擇切除。正常人有五隻手指，多了一隻手指會被視為「不正常」的。上學會被同學笑，上街會被途人望，動手術切除是為免孩子自卑。
敢於與別不同
有時候，我不大確定所謂「正常」是什麼意思。跟大部分人一樣，就算是「正常」了嗎？我多一隻手指影響到你嗎？為什麼「人人都有五隻手指」，我就非要「五隻手指」不可？切除一根有血有肉的健康指頭，不是太殘忍了嗎？有些父母認為把孩子塑造成主流一樣，孩子的路會好走一點。一旦跟大夥兒不同，就會遭到歧視了。你比別人聰明，會遭到歧視；你比別人愚蠢，會遭到歧視。智商必須保持在全港中位數的上下10%以內，真是一趟吃力的人生啊。
我從網上看到一則新聞，浙江一個女孩生下來就擁有十二隻手指和十二隻腳趾。家人起初擔心孩子會被人嘲笑，爺爺卻疼惜地說：「正常的，每隻腳趾都有骨頭！」他明白了第六根指頭的意義，給孫女起了名字──邵無雙。
每個人都是與別不同的。問題是，你是否敢於與別不同。
－－節錄自《蘭開夏道》20/11/2010
2010年11月20日 星期六
Hail the document crunching monkeys!
與友人不約而同都有英國籍組員。有趣的事發生了，兩位英國同學平時說話頭頭是道，如今要交document了，大家才發覺他們都不懂用Microsoft Word.
當我告訴他，把下一個section放到下一頁，可以不用狂按ENTER而是可以按Control+ENTER，他好像發現新大陸。當我告訴他，可以用format paintbrush 來format其他段落的時候，他說,"Oh can you do the paintbrush thing again? I LOVE IT!"
Hm...對於formatting訓練有素，有幸有不幸吧...
當我告訴他，把下一個section放到下一頁，可以不用狂按ENTER而是可以按Control+ENTER，他好像發現新大陸。當我告訴他，可以用format paintbrush 來format其他段落的時候，他說,"Oh can you do the paintbrush thing again? I LOVE IT!"
Hm...對於formatting訓練有素，有幸有不幸吧...
2010年11月18日 星期四
Ah...forget the Chinese!
Yes I do realize that I haven't been seriously blogging in November, and for the sake of time management I stopped writing in Chinese. Please bear with me, I hope I will resume writing in that language after this term.
*
Finally got my first job application rejection. From Rothschild. Well yea I shouldn't be surprised, Linda did warn me that I'm over-qualified for the graduate program...well whatever, it's better than having loose ends dangling around anyhow.
Something about application systems though: been applying online for a global investment bank and failed to proceed to the "submit" button because the system didn't allow me to fill in the name of my previous employers. Applicants can only choose the previous employer name from a list of 300 firms, and (obviously) my old bosses weren't on the list. Well well how cocky is that?! Leon Richards commented: "Well think about it, you probably don't want to work for an employer like that, do you?"
Funny thing is, I do. No hypocrisy, no nonsense. Why ask me all those daft questions about "Why Citi Why Blackrock Why RBS Why Barcap" when what you are actually ONLY concerned about is whether I've been working in a posh firm in the past or whether I have a 2:1 degree in undergrad. Why not do this effective screening and make it honest? It's kinda discrimination, I know. But it's unbelievable how much the HR guys are obsessed with this 2:1 requirement. Is that not discrimination then?
Isn't it awful having that 2:2 hanging around when you know it's not even related to your career at all? Well anyway I decided to STOP ALL JOB-HUNTING till I am about to graduate. Fuck the programs, they've been taking too much of my time! Stop worrying about career. I saved enough money to do exactly that. Why wasn't I sticking to it?
*
Had a really interesting conversation with a classmate today. We were talking about how we could improve to work better. Substantially there's nothing much to say, really, the group's been terrific, but this guy did ask a good question: You're just 24, how on earth did you get THAT cynical?
Reading through my previous blog entries, he's right! Probably 90% of my entries are cynical/depressed and the remaining 10% are happy, and the happy entries are written in codes that probably nobody but the only relevant person knows how to decode.
And now I know there's this point when I no longer knew how to make her happy anymore. Because I didn't even know how to make myself happy. And everything just bloody crashes.
Now. I'm getting hungry again in the middle of the night. And I like it because when this always happens, it means I am happy. =)
*
Finally got my first job application rejection. From Rothschild. Well yea I shouldn't be surprised, Linda did warn me that I'm over-qualified for the graduate program...well whatever, it's better than having loose ends dangling around anyhow.
Something about application systems though: been applying online for a global investment bank and failed to proceed to the "submit" button because the system didn't allow me to fill in the name of my previous employers. Applicants can only choose the previous employer name from a list of 300 firms, and (obviously) my old bosses weren't on the list. Well well how cocky is that?! Leon Richards commented: "Well think about it, you probably don't want to work for an employer like that, do you?"
Funny thing is, I do. No hypocrisy, no nonsense. Why ask me all those daft questions about "Why Citi Why Blackrock Why RBS Why Barcap" when what you are actually ONLY concerned about is whether I've been working in a posh firm in the past or whether I have a 2:1 degree in undergrad. Why not do this effective screening and make it honest? It's kinda discrimination, I know. But it's unbelievable how much the HR guys are obsessed with this 2:1 requirement. Is that not discrimination then?
Isn't it awful having that 2:2 hanging around when you know it's not even related to your career at all? Well anyway I decided to STOP ALL JOB-HUNTING till I am about to graduate. Fuck the programs, they've been taking too much of my time! Stop worrying about career. I saved enough money to do exactly that. Why wasn't I sticking to it?
*
Had a really interesting conversation with a classmate today. We were talking about how we could improve to work better. Substantially there's nothing much to say, really, the group's been terrific, but this guy did ask a good question: You're just 24, how on earth did you get THAT cynical?
Reading through my previous blog entries, he's right! Probably 90% of my entries are cynical/depressed and the remaining 10% are happy, and the happy entries are written in codes that probably nobody but the only relevant person knows how to decode.
And now I know there's this point when I no longer knew how to make her happy anymore. Because I didn't even know how to make myself happy. And everything just bloody crashes.
Now. I'm getting hungry again in the middle of the night. And I like it because when this always happens, it means I am happy. =)
2010年11月17日 星期三
We are all a little tired for some reason
Today a classmate told me, "I am your Daddy for these few weeks. No football for a month for you until you get well."
That's very nice of him really, but when I come to think of it, I have never ever declined to play anything due to injury! (especially since my injuries are never really that serious)
I kind of enjoy the pain and the muscle fatigues I get after every game. If I don't get them, I feel like I haven't used up myself. And curiously, the more physically tired I am, the less mentally tired I become.
And then, dealing with loneliness always becomes easier.
That's very nice of him really, but when I come to think of it, I have never ever declined to play anything due to injury! (especially since my injuries are never really that serious)
I kind of enjoy the pain and the muscle fatigues I get after every game. If I don't get them, I feel like I haven't used up myself. And curiously, the more physically tired I am, the less mentally tired I become.
And then, dealing with loneliness always becomes easier.
2010年11月16日 星期二
JfDI
Somehow feels like I am really living out the meaning of JfDI.
These few days I did think a while about why I should even bother, but then I thought, OK, it's not about whether I "should" but rather whether I "want to". It's nothing big, after all. Just a little odd. Or perhaps even not.
Would it have been better if...?
Shit.
These few days I did think a while about why I should even bother, but then I thought, OK, it's not about whether I "should" but rather whether I "want to". It's nothing big, after all. Just a little odd. Or perhaps even not.
Would it have been better if...?
Shit.
2010年11月5日 星期五
What I went through in the midterms
離開香港以前，我收到最多的祝福語是“記住溝番條鬼妹啊”。
朋友們，我鄭重的說，這是不可能的。
第一，鬼妹不會對我有興趣。第二，參加了女子足球隊這幾個禮拜，覺得文化差異實在太大。
每個禮拜都會收到一個email，title是 "trainings and SOCIALLLLLLL!" 對，trainings是其次，social才最重要。她們每個禮拜三晚上都有social event，一眾女子都按每週主題打扮一番，喝得爛醉然後第二天走堂。有時我覺得，偶爾喝酒當然沒問題，但每個禮拜？！還要每個禮拜都有特別的costume？Isn't that a bit too much?還有一些所謂隊友，training都沒出現過但fb卻有social照片。
禮拜三去了幫足球隊做旁證，賽後又有一堆人想叫我去當天晚上的social，我心想，屌，我來踢波o架。
這種文化差異，非不能理解，但卻一輩子都融合不了。
朋友們，我鄭重的說，這是不可能的。
第一，鬼妹不會對我有興趣。第二，參加了女子足球隊這幾個禮拜，覺得文化差異實在太大。
每個禮拜都會收到一個email，title是 "trainings and SOCIALLLLLLL!" 對，trainings是其次，social才最重要。她們每個禮拜三晚上都有social event，一眾女子都按每週主題打扮一番，喝得爛醉然後第二天走堂。有時我覺得，偶爾喝酒當然沒問題，但每個禮拜？！還要每個禮拜都有特別的costume？Isn't that a bit too much?還有一些所謂隊友，training都沒出現過但fb卻有social照片。
禮拜三去了幫足球隊做旁證，賽後又有一堆人想叫我去當天晚上的social，我心想，屌，我來踢波o架。
這種文化差異，非不能理解，但卻一輩子都融合不了。
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